Melaka /kl emo trip

Was at Melaka and kl for the pass few days
Awesomeness !! Because I met my old friends and no more enemy with everyone :) lol..
Okay everyday is about drink drank and drunk..
Of cours I had my favorite food over there

First fucking time , had this so paria bus for so long journey alone



And I can't even sleep on the bus ...
Ass was damn pain by sitting so long...



Melacca !!!

First night exodus pub !! 7 second to finish half pint of Guinness :)
Second day .. Walking shopping alone :( freakig boring
And a lot a lot of none smoking zone in malacca , even outside starbucks also cannot smoke :(
But I still smoke I don't care ~



Visiting one of the famous place :)



A Dj studio ...
Tribe sound baby !!



Met this cute little ah boy ~
And Casper and joe :)
Ngee ngee so long never see them!!

Then movida happy hour with the sisters,
Then watching dark shadow..
Then going to meet my sista again at mixx .. The famous club in Melaka :) yeah finally I'm there !! But ....



Pok Kai before enter the club..
Fuck my high heels lor ..
Grrrrrerrrr !!
Spoilt my mood ~
And then I decided to leave the next day . Because I don't wanna stay anymore ...

Angry **
But u met a lot a lot of old friends tere ,probably all Dj of course :)


Went kl for a night ...
Met this famous chef and the wifey ..

What did u do on Saturday night? Probably ppl will watch football
And me ??
Staying in a 5 star apartment



Enjoying homemade pasta and margarita



Chillin at the balcony



This is life man !!!




Is blessed that no matter where I go I will sure find someone who really can accompany me and be real to me. They taught me a lot a lot ...
I'm so thankful , Lolx I'm not afraid to be dump by my parents one day :)




Back to Ipoh ,another friend calling to her house , okay pass over something and chilling at her big big house again
Why la everybody so rich?
Like a castle .....
I also wan to be rich !!

First day of work

Received a lot a lot SMS and whatsapp who wishing me "good luck of first day at work"
I'm blessed to have u all...
Went there few minutes earlier ( i thought im gonna be late)
Report myself at the counter and everybody was starring at me.. Hey boy I'm not a monster, im just a pretty girl okay:) lol

Sitting there was looking at the menu ,the manager said boss ask u to be the cashier today.. I was like.. I don even familiar with the table number,and the menu . Don't even know how to key in .. U ask me to take care of money huh..
Frankly to say I don't even know what's my colleague name..
Sat down at the cashier most of the time. Because he said no one can touch the cashier other then urself. Even go toilet also have to bring the key along..
How to snake la?? I smoke super less today.. :(
Was so bore took out my phone and see , he came and shout at me.. If ever caught u with phone again I'm gonna fine u for rm50. Ah DIu ! What the fuck is that??

Never really tell people where do I work because I had a feelings that I'm not gonna work for long..

How I wish I can have office hour of work..
U see,most of my fren also will b sleeping already after I work ..

A lot politics going on.. First day at work and started this told me that he don't love that fella and gossips

The only good thing is .. My guy colleague kinda good to me,they teach me what not to do to get caught, what suppose to do when big boss around , they gave me soft drinks, they bring a plate of rice from
Kitchen for me.. Haha #likeaprincess again

Well , I hope tomorow they gonna put me on the floor learning everything..
I hope it's not gonna be tough.

Arghhhhhhhh it's already 3am
Is not easy to be a supervisor :(
Good night all ...
I'm not having a good day today seriously..

《On Call 36小时》台词大全

 这一段时在on call36小时地15集中杨怡说的一段很励志的语录，经历过期望与失望，经历过责任和自我的纠结取舍，就会非常明白她说的这一些

每个人对生命都有不同的期望
有些人是为了自己
有些人是为了满足别人
但从来没有人能保证
这些期望何时可以达成
如果期望真的无法达成
那是否该坚持下去呢？
也许期望会带来痛苦
但正因为有期望
就算有多痛苦我们都可以熬过去
所以即使多么害怕失望，多么怕痛
也不可以失去期待
剧作家莎士比亚曾经讲过
期待是唯一能够医治苦难的药物
我更加觉得当你悲伤的时候
期望就好像一首能安抚伤痛的音乐
能够达成期望当然是一件开心的事
但有时候我们的期望
会违背了其他人的愿望
难免就要做出取舍
放弃哪一个期望都要付出代价
但是除了你自己
没有人会告诉你应该如何抉择
有些期待可能不关你事
你会不明白为何有些人愿意牺牲性命
也要追求一些不会有结果的期望
但若用心感受，你便会学会
每个期望或轻或重都是值得尊重的
可是无论期望带给你安慰，快乐，还是伤心
能够期望与被期望都是幸福的事
因为我们还生存着
就算有多少个期望落空
我们也可以拥有新的期望
直到生命的最后一刻_第十五集经典台词

——《On Call 36小时》台词大全

我的妈妈节

一打开Facebook 就看见成千上万的母亲节贺语，跟妈妈的合照。
口说着，我不会稀罕，可是内心却都在想，妈妈你到底是什么样子？怎么你那么忍心丢下几个月大的我给住在泰国的婆婆？你有想过我吗？很想亲口祝你母亲节快乐可是你到底还在人世吗？

很多朋友都问我，如果她要回你，你要不要她？说真的我真的无法接受叫一个陌生人"妈妈"，更何况要住在一起？被领养不是什么不见得光的事情，至少现在我活的很好，

他们都很疼爱我、没有了现在的他们，我可能在泰国做妓女咯~我那么漂亮哈哈。

小时候老师要我填上爸爸妈妈什么职业，我竟然写了爸爸是家庭主妇，结果全班人都笑我。大老，我连爸爸妈妈是谁我都没有见过，何况他们的职业？还有！spelling wrong "mother "结果留堂写5百次mother
我永远都不会忘记
谢谢我师傅教导我，养育我。
还有啊！那些死贱人，分手的理由说过；我没有好的家庭背景。什么烂理由？说我就好，说我家人我跟你拼了！
一生人我最疼爱我的家人，虽然每次都说他们超级烦又不让我追逐我的梦想，结果我想着想着，算了吧，没有他们就没有我今天，

祝天下的妈妈们母亲节快乐，有妈妈的你们要好好珍惜哦！

Sad tu day

So what ya doing on this Saturday??
Which is today ..
What I did ? It was so boring ~
Basically woke up ,eat,watching tv,dinner and sleep ..
Come on ,is a freaking Saturday man..
What to do??
Everybody is busy celebrating mama day , and no one date me out :)
So... I spend my little time with my daughter ....

This little bitchy is so annoying,whenever she see me holding my handbag and she will be staring at me like this ..
She don't like to be alone ....
Wat a life ...
Laptop can't freaking connect to wireless .. And luckily my phone still can connect or else I rather go to McDonald !!
The time by now is about to start party..but....I'm lying on my bed to updating this blog Sound so emo ..

I was kinda  missing the last Saturday ~
Somebody ask for help ,and I was like okay I wait u there ,make sure u call me when u need help .. Ending up I get drunk and he still never call..
And he never dare to call me anymore :)
Well last Saturday was at a karaoke bar , singing ,drinking ,although just 3 glasses of half pint Guinness and I freaking can get drunk..
Can't denied that the Guinness is very fresh as they say ...

Frankly to say ,was kinda missing those party moment ,like after u work ,strict away to the clubs and dance like nobody business,n now..
Everybody was disappeared, the younger generation has replaced us..
And the old people like us love to go for live band and chill out ..




Ipoh is a death place !! rghhh I already stress to the maximum!
Why la no one wana hire me this pretty one :) although I look pretty but I can work also ..... Lol

I wana go Melaka !! Friends from there already making noise I was like 1 year plus never been there..
I miss jonker street I miss my bestie over there.. Well I had  friends everywhere :)
Oh yeah nadeje cake.... Duno how it spell la or Mayb najede ??
Fuck !! I wan that cake ~ go to google and u can see how delicious is that cake..I'm only craving for that cake and chicken ball rice ...
 
 
So hungry right now ..
Gotta plan and stay away from Ipoh !!
Get drunk n not one asking me to go home early .. Is totally freedom man!!

Wait for me Melaka !
Plan plan plan very hard and I'll be rocking there soon ,movida wait for me~~!!!

Well well is just a creppy update today , nothing to do with the phone this is what I enjoying the most other then temple run ..

Happy mama day to all the mama's




Double chin is always me








Zero make up for family dinner today

I'm shinning

Well well well
Let's start the blog with what I eat today ?

And it's all for free u know why ?? Once of my old friend invited me so thank you !! And he force us for dessert some more :)
And dinner - Bnb is having member night, me as a super member I got free BBQ buffet , free ice cream from the waiter and free beers by my friends..
Seems like today I never use any money though ... And so much of fattening today. I should stop eating .

Okay let's get into the topic.
Basically when people see me they will ask : did cruisers photography ask u for money that he shoot u? Or how can u get close with him??

I can still stand for these question la . I mean yes I am no body and I'm trying very hard to be somebody that u will never forget of..
Let me answer you guys once again ...
I get to know him in Facebook and we shoot it because he love taking pictures and I love to pose.. No money regarded. And yet I know I am not a super model but still a famous photographer wanna shoot me ,why? I think u gotta ask him why
(if u think that I am that unsuccessful )
U r wrong :)
Well I'm gonna show u what people has write me ad tweeted me today ! Yes I got it all by today .. *diziness*



( like I wanna lie like that ?no point lor I won't simply use people's name especially those famous people )so pls think before u tweet



Another duno who just add me and act like friendly but just wanna know do I pay him..

Somehow of cours i always get positive's comment and I'm so wanna show !!






Just a part of this .. More and more I got no time to screen shot ..
Thank you so much for invitation for the next shooting (maybe someday we could work together )
And thanks a lot for the good comments !!!
I'll work hard on it ...



And got spamming with the likes from this cute little girl , thanks so much for the support !!




Another nice picture from cruisers ..

Well , haters say wat u wanna say , ur words will not gonna hurt me , and I'm gonna prove u wrong one day watch out .....

Changes

So apparently , I found that I changed after I being with him.. So I let u to judge is that a good or bad thing..

- cut down smoking , I know is not so much I cut down but at least I tried

- never been to the club for so long ...( I love chilling place,because I'm old)

- I started eat fish! Food which I hate the most, but I ate fish an chips and even spaghetti salmon nowadays

- no more buying Iphone casing so frequently

-no more hanging out every night

- learning to swim , from 0 knowledge of swimming ,because I wana dive with him one day!

-no need alcohol to control my bad mood,coke will do

-attend all the photo shooting ,and video shooting supported by him!!
( without him support me I guess I won't go for it ) and he won't complaint y I dress up so little ,this and that he will say - go ahead and do whatever u like , I support u

-get more along with all friends as he ask me to ... He know I need friend

I guess what I wrote above is a good thing , I mean a good start ..
I got the motivation for u and that's why I'm a good girl right now ..
I'm not afraid Front of the cameras , I never ask any friends to help me to get in to modeling and tv shows ..

I think tv or radio station should interview me, how to became cheerful after I fell down from very high ..

Nothing can ever beat me down...

I love him more
Because I don't pretend in front of him and I be whoever I am. I remembered that : I warn him before I together with him , a lot people gonna add him as fren if he together with me , ( stalkers ) and he say he will not afraid ..

I will be very bad temper while I get angry and he said he don't care..

And now he shows me everything , no more pretending in front of each others , trusting is very important in a relationship and also no lying ...

We love each others , we believe each others , we don't lie to each others this is the three things that makes us strong today...
We don't relay ,we r independent ...

That's love ~

I guess , stalkers is so wanna know how am I with my bf and all ? Well now I'm here to tell u guys , we r fine
We r good ... We r happy,

We don't need any wishes from unknown people who never really wana wish us .. Fake !!! :)

A sweet blog for him. Hope he will like it ..

I changed :)

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Another emo day

What a weirdo day ...
I got news from my new job but isn't a good news...
Too much of weird number calling today without saving in my contact ..
End up is all stupid nonsense called..
Confirmation call for diner booking ,or even someone called me to teach me how to diet?what ? Diet ??

Well I'm not in the good mood
Today .. But I'm happy that ... U guys call and even teach me how to diet ..

U know what I choose to disappear for awhile from home and from
Facebook...
Found a quiet place to sit down alone for a drink ,and blogging with my mobile ..
Told my parents that I need a peace of mind, I don't wanna be home..grab my car key and start my car.

Was thinking alone over and over again, what the fuck am I actually doing right now ??
Everyone seems achieving their goal , working hard of their job, watching tv today ,even a handicap know what she wans,what about me ???
Since I can't achieve what I want , should I started up with someone I don't like and make use of it ??
I don't know .....

Is time to be strong ,time to think what do I want....

I know emoing is not a good hobby,Friday night and me emoing somewhere .... Should just go out and get fucking drunk !!!
But after get drunk it will be da same the next day .... Or even I get more torturing , suffering of hang over and shit ...

Headphone on ,volume up to the maximum ....

Why do I actually go swim everyday ?
1) to diet ,get myself healthy
2) to freaking runaway from the problems I had now although is just for temporary ....

I had a fucking piss off day and speechless ... I guess today I never talked to anyone ....

Tears falling down every moment when I'm thinking of my future because I can't see any future in me ...

Leave me alone :(

Labour day

April has gone..
I love April because that's the happiest moment ever in my life ** u know why ? If u follow me u will know more then I tell :)

What's up with my labour day?
For me everyday is my labour day or holiday .. :( so I've got no special feeling. Everyone was saying , today no traffic jam at all. ..
So is a very quiet day in Ipoh. As I seen everyone was outstation for one day trip holiday ,and me???

Swimming once after my breakfast ..
Yeap I'm alone..
Told the pool man I'm alone
Today and he like saying : don't.worry I'm here all the time u r not alone ..
This guy.. Always notice me n talked to me even always starring at me while I swim.. Met a friend today and she told me that the day I'm not around , he asking my friend where am I... Hurmm sounds so ... Disgusting !!But thanks god he
Won't be around for few weeks As he told me today, so I can swim freedomly like a fish :) yeahh!!

Swimming alone is kinda emo..but I'll do that frequently because I wanna diet !! I don't know why that I'm so addicted to swim~
It might be my man .. He love swimming and I promise him I'll dive with him one day ,abuden I must learn to swim nicely only I can dive ,as I'm clumsy I might lose my life in the sea !hahaha just joking..
It was a very very busy yum cha day ..
Yumcha " tea time " . After swim,went to kopi tiam had a root beet flood ,after dinner went to burger king meet up my friends. After that starbucks for cookie crumble frappucino . I knew that I can't take coffee but it seriously so yummilicious I can't control myself :)
Never thought I'll get dizzy after that .. Arhhh it's killing me now!
After I drank coffee I'll feel headache ,stomach ache but this time I had fucking migraine and dizzy like after I drank a lot of beers..shut my eyes and everything went spinning ...






A good news , I'm gonna have my next shooting should be next week , theme is old building in Ipoh .. Hurm should be perak , and the photographers promise me will give me back all my pictures and unlike the previous one... Keeping my picture so long don't wanna give me , don't wana post on fb ..
Wondering what the hell they doing with my pictures :(



The Chinese tea that my parent present to boo boo ... And he boil himself ?so clever !!
And my parents ask him make sure he made it for us when he come back so warm warm . My parent never present anything to my ex bf and he is the first one who has a lot present :)
Even my parents keep on asking me to update them if he is safe on his journey or not ...

Haha booboo , ur successfully passed for the examination of my parents :)
Learn more Cantonese and they will sayang u more then me :)
Is a good thing !!!

Okay I'm gonna off to my dreamland due to stupid dizziness killing me nicely goodnight people's