Another emo day

What a weirdo day ...
I got news from my new job but isn't a good news...
Too much of weird number calling today without saving in my contact ..
End up is all stupid nonsense called..
Confirmation call for diner booking ,or even someone called me to teach me how to diet?what ? Diet ??

Well I'm not in the good mood
Today .. But I'm happy that ... U guys call and even teach me how to diet ..

U know what I choose to disappear for awhile from home and from
Facebook...
Found a quiet place to sit down alone for a drink ,and blogging with my mobile ..
Told my parents that I need a peace of mind, I don't wanna be home..grab my car key and start my car.

Was thinking alone over and over again, what the fuck am I actually doing right now ??
Everyone seems achieving their goal , working hard of their job, watching tv today ,even a handicap know what she wans,what about me ???
Since I can't achieve what I want , should I started up with someone I don't like and make use of it ??
I don't know .....

Is time to be strong ,time to think what do I want....

I know emoing is not a good hobby,Friday night and me emoing somewhere .... Should just go out and get fucking drunk !!!
But after get drunk it will be da same the next day .... Or even I get more torturing , suffering of hang over and shit ...

Headphone on ,volume up to the maximum ....

Why do I actually go swim everyday ?
1) to diet ,get myself healthy
2) to freaking runaway from the problems I had now although is just for temporary ....

I had a fucking piss off day and speechless ... I guess today I never talked to anyone ....

Tears falling down every moment when I'm thinking of my future because I can't see any future in me ...

Leave me alone :(