Don't judge me

Who am I?
I am emocandy .. Why do I called myself emocandy ? No idea .. Just trying to be unique maybe?
Sometimes I did goggle myself.. (sounds stupid huh ) but there quite numbers of my pictures popping up though..

Well,
What u had right now is that what you want ?thats the question of the day..

For me, frankly to say .. This is not what I want..
I don't freakin want a Job like this ,stays at the office all the time.. But the other way round , is kinda good because the time is flaxible , I can do whatever I wan at night ..
Therefor I had a night job too ..
I don't mind u all gossip about what I did.. Emocandy? She's just a waitress at xxx .. Emocandy ? I thought she sang well .. Emocandy ?who is she ?

I love the way how people think of me. Is like .. I thought she were bla bla bla ex Gf.and ect , but in the end u know my name but not my story..and who are u to judge?

Dream dream dream do u have a dream??
I guess everyone had it but is just that they gotta do a lot of hard work to achieve their dreams..time flies ..
I'm getting older.. I'm only half way working on my dream..
Well, I will not give up..
As the quotes of "step up revolution" do whatever u wanna do , break the rules !!
But how many people can actually do it ?
First u gonna give up something in order to achieve something .
U gotta have money to survive while in the process to achieving your dream .. U might have to give up your parents If they can't accept of what u doing, or maybe u gotta give up your love one ..
Talked about love ...
I just can't give anyone my heart for 100% anymore. Whenever I feel that he is my mr right , the other way round, he said bye ...
I am a strong girl to live without any guys ..
I just wan a guy who can really care my feeling , take care of me , and understand me.. I don't want a rich man with a fancy Ferrari , who own a fuckin Banglow ,with hundred Maids around , body guard and so on.
I know , nobody gonna believe what I said .. Whatever
For me , a loyal man means a lot more then a rich man with no time accompany you ..
Branded stuffs ? Is it all of the girl compulsory to have a lv ,channel or fucking Gucci ??
They might be somebody thinks that they were damn high class because they own it , though .. I'll respect of u brought that with your own an original one .. If not, what is so nice to showing off ?
I've got nothing to show because I don't have any of it ~ what am I proud of myself is just my attitude ..
I do whatever i want. I'll find my own way even there's so much of things blocking me..is just that do I really wanna Do it ? Well I'm not ready for that yet ..
I can't imagine how am I fonna live without my family ..
Maybe one day .. I will ...

I broke down, I cried under my blanket everynight , socialize is just apart of me to temporary forget about what burden Im having.. Trying to enjoy while time to enjoy myself ..
Yeah I always wear a smile on my face, and everyone will ask me. Hey how can u be so happy ?
But that was my fake smile but who cares ?? And who knows ??
Scrolling my phone book , yea fucking a lot of contact list I had but how many numbers I dial often ?and how many people actually called ?
There's only one number .. With the contact name ; home

So , who am I ??
I'm just nobody , people who love my pictures , they will follow my Instagram with all the random one . People who wanna know more about me , they will view my Facebook ..

Face book : yeah it was so annoying that I always receive a lot of private message that .. Always sent to me ... For example;
Hi
How r u
R u Malay ?
Hi
Hi
Hi
Hey babe , hi darling , hi baby
It was so annoying ...
I'm not your baby so don't call me baby
-- this is da reason why my loved one got angry about
U might say this is just to address
But .. Well , how much u know about me ? And who are u to call me like that ?
If ever Facebook can blocked everyone for messaging ...
I'll be glad

I don't know since when I became so emo ...
I started don't feel like picking up calls or replying any SMS ...

Because I feel like being alone ..




I admit that imma weirdo ,
I just need a peace of mylife ..

Still nobody understand me
Dont think that I am just emo
I wrote it because I meant it

Peace out !!!

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